ECINAJ, yeah. That's me.

Shattered to a million pieces.

2011-03-04T21:25:00.003+08:00

Let's see... Common test was officially over on Tuesday...
Got back all my results and of course, they weren't fantastic.
Oh well, can't cry over spilled milk.
Head's been in a mess for quite some time now.
Don't exactly know what to feel and what I should do.
One side's telling me to do this, the other is telling me to do that.
Brain oh brain, what's going on?
I really want you to come back.
Home doesn't feel like home without you.
I used to tell you everything.
Now, I can't find a replacement.
Will you really come back?
Doesn't feel like you're coming back though...
Really need your encouragement and stuff..
Sigh... Though its been 1 month+ going 2, I still can't get over it.
Of all years, why this year?
I miss your nagging, your hugs, your everything.
Empty feeling ever since you left.
Sigh. I guess I can't really believe in promises anymore.
Oh well.
What to do, what to do...
I wanna go to an open field, scream my heart out and and cry.
After letting it all out, I'd just fall to the ground and sleep for eternity.
It'd be better, aye?
Awaiting that day to come when I can actually do so.
Lonely lonely feeling.
Guess I'll have to live with it..
Trying to stay strong...
I just need to let it all out.
Really need to let it all out...

But I can't. I don't know of a way to let it all out.

LIZARDS SHOULD DIE.

2011-02-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

ANTS SHOULD ALL JUST DIE.
LIZARDS EAT ANTS.
SO, NO ANTS = NO FOOD FOR LIZARDS.
NO FOOD FOR LIZARDS = THEY ALL DIE.
THEY ALL DIE = NO MORE LIZARDS.
NO MORE LIZARDS = HAPPY ME. :@

35 days.

2011-02-13T23:12:00.003+08:00

So, I have 35 days to save as much money as possible.
For what? For an iphone 4 of course.
Wanted to change phone last year but mum said next year (which is this year).
Now, she says I'll have to wait a little longer more.
Tssk. Gonna save money to buy it myself.
Sweet 16? More like sour.
Oh well..
Hoodie? No.
You to come back by my birthday? No.
iphone 4? No.
Anything at all? No.
Study? Yes.
Amaaaaaaaaaaaazing.
I get to study on my birthday!
Isn't it amazing? As if.
Whateverrr. 35 days more and hopefully I'll have enough money by then.
Sighhhhh.
If I manage to get my hoodie and phone, I wont bug anyone anymore.
I will be a good girl and study hard.
Even if I don't get them, I don't have a choice right?
Effing sad. :(
Oh well..
At least I have MCWJ...
:/

Definitely not looking forward to my birthday.

Day 6: I miss you... :(

2011-01-16T14:22:00.001+08:00

Yeah...
Life without you, sucks.
It's too quiet at home...
Sigh....
Lost without you...
:/

Wtf?

2010-12-31T13:56:00.005+08:00

Okay. Let's just say, I'm too pissed to make this a colourful post.

First things first. YOU are asking ME for something. I asked YOU something and you DIDN'T tell me. So fine. I 'answered' that question for you. Then, you don't want/like the answer. YOU are now ANGRY with ME. Sure, go ahead. Make me feel bad or whatsoever. It's not like I feel GUILTY or MUCH BETTER or something. Yeah, I don't feel ANYTHING at all. I'm all NEUTRAL. I can't do ANYTHING about it anyway. I guess I'm just USED to a life LIKE THIS.

Wouldn't it be much better if I weren't around from the start? Yeah, maybe it would be MUCH BETTER. For you, for whatever. YOU don't 'listen' to me, so I guess I'm not NEEDED anywhere. So yeah. I think it'd be better if I just disappeared, leaving EVERYTHING that belongs to me behind. Mmm, yeah. Don't worry. I'm all fine. I WON'T do anything stupid at all. In fact, I THANK you for making me REALIZE how much I'm actually NEEDED. Hmmm, maybe not ME but my stuff. Yeah. -.-

Screw my life, not you, but me. Yeah. ME. I'm to blame for EVERYTHING. You don't actually need me. You're only USING me. Ahh, sure~ Do whatever you want. I don't give a shit anymore.

Wow, thanks. Really, I appreciate you making me feel this way. You are ALWAYS taking me for GRANTED. I guess that's my purpose for existing anyway.

Whatever.

:'(

2010-12-10T18:11:00.004+08:00

Sigh.. I really don't want 2011 to come..
Should I be happy that I overheard that?
Or should I be sad?
I really don't know how I should be feeling now...
If I didn't find out on my own, would it hurt more if you told me yourself?
Would I be less confused about my feelings if you told me yourself?
Or is it gonna be worse?
Sigh.. Whatever it is...
It still hurts.
I really don't know how I should be feeling.
Been trying not to think about it but...
I admit defeat.
I can no longer fight back those tears.
What would life be like without you?
The moment I heard you say it, I felt my heart break.
An uneasy feeling overwhelmed my heart.
My eyes can't help but to fill up with tears.
Why must it be so soon?
I always tell you everything.
You understood me the most.
You never fail to brighten my day whenever it was gloomy.
What will happen when you're gone?
Sigh....
My tears just can't stop flowing now...
My heart is crying too.
My brain.
I guess I'm not prepared yet.
But I guess I don't get more time...
It's been confirmed and you're leaving..
All I have to say is that, I love you very much.

I can't imgaine life without you. I really can't. It hurts too much. :'(

Nightmares? :(

2010-12-07T19:34:00.002+08:00

Helloo peopleeeee! ( If they still come here o.O )
First week of December and I've already had 4 nightmares!
And yes. It sucks a lot.
Even when I took a 4-hour nap, I had a nightmare!
Two days in a row now! :(
All of them felt VERY real.
For some reason..
Okay. Whatever..
Hoping to have a wonderful dream tonight~
Planned something with someone... Heh heh heh.
It's gonna be awesome like crazy okay!
YOU, just wait and see! ;)
Total ownage! Ahhhh haaaa!
Anyway...
Havent started on homework at all yet.
I'm so screwed. xD
Track ended earlier than usual today! Ended at 10. :o
Not fun throwing discus in the field when it's WET!
Wanna throw Javelin during the next training! :D
Moving on... My 2011 is already screwed even though it's not even 2011 yet..
Will just have to be 'mentally' prepared then...
Oh well.. Nothing I can do anyway.
'O' Levels next year. Goodluck to those who came to Earth in the year 1995.
Yupyup.. I'm... Gonna go find something to do now~
Good and bye. xD

Scrabble abble!

2010-11-16T22:05:00.004+08:00

Har har. Scrabble session with Cindy on Monday while waiting for Michelle.

Yes. Cindy has a sick mind! D:

Haha. It was fun though. :)

Last day of extended lessons! Yaaaaaaaaaaay!

Need to go school on Thursday to collect consent form.. Sigh.

After that I need to go for class gathering then make my way to cell group.

So 'busy'!!

Haaaa. Nevermind!

Camp changed to 22112o1o to 25112o1o.

Teehee! Will need to rest before the camp! ;)

Tralalaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

On the phone with Michelle yet again. xD

Today. She ganged up with Yumiko, Yeow Rong and Cindy!

They all bully me! :'(

So meannnnnnnnnn.

Okay. Anyway...

Today was disturbing. Seriously disturbing.

Not gonna talk about it... Harhar.

Shall end here nowww! Byebye! xD

^____^

2010-11-01T21:27:00.002+08:00

It's been soooooooooooo long since I last blogged! Heeee!
Let's seeeeee.... Results are terrible but whatever.
Will work extremely hard! :)
"Nothing comes by easily. Keep trying and never give up."
Currently on the phone with Michelle Ong Xing Yi. ^____^
She's thinking of SOMEONE....
Life's been awesome with Michelle, Cindy & Wenqi.
Thanks for being there for me when I needed support.
Sec 3 camp from o8112o1o to 1o112o1o...
Don't feel like going. :(
But bo bian...
Hmmm....
SL camp from 20112o1o to 23112o1o.
Yaaaay!
I think it's about time to change my blog song..
Will blog again when extended lessons end..
Teeheee! ^____^
"Hold on tight as you'll never know when a storm will come."

"You alone are my heart's desire and I long to worship Thee."

Fuck?

2010-08-24T22:38:00.008+08:00

Mmkay. Let's see. I can't be bothered to do the colour thing. I shall stick with red then. Hmmm... What happened today?... Well... I got last in class for Chemistry. Yea, to all you out there who were wondering who on Earth got the 19/50 for Chem, it's me. Janice Zhuang. K. Enough of that. How I wish we could choose not to change classes. Why couldn't all of us just be together for the 4 years? 2E2'09 had the bestest bonds with one another. If only it remained like that. Looking out for each other, bullying the teachers together. Mmmhmmm... Well, if it stayed that way, none of us would have been forgotten eh? Whatever. The hatred I'm feeling right now, is strong enough to build a barrier. An unbreakable one. I came home, held everything back, thinking that I wouldn't break down. But who knew, I came home, not long after, everything came pouring out. Mmmhmm. Oh well. Will never find happiness in school EVER AGAIN. Moving on from all the crappy fuck shit.. After multiple attempts in 5 years.. I've finally gotten my Ultimate trophy for Swordfighting. Yup. 5/- years of trying. Finally. That made me extremely happy. Thankyou God and Puzzle pirates. Had a reason to be happy, at home of course! Not forgetting the AWESOME people. Ha! If you think I'm talking about you, nah. Dream on. Many thanks to Bee Ling for your concern. You still can tell when I'm feeling down. Thanks. :) Many thanks to Jennifer for your support. You're the best sister ever. :) Many thanks to my fellow crew mates in Puzzle Pirates. Mmhmm. Defected and Magebane. I never fail to laugh when you guys play poker. Hah. Yup. They were the only ones who made my day. Mmhmm. Well, getting back E Maths paper tomorrow. I do not want to do Ace-Learning, Thankyou very much.

My favourite-st trophy yet. Cheers! ^____^ Thanks for your support, Jenn, Defected and Blujella!

Reunited!

2010-07-28T22:25:00.002+08:00

Hello!
Finally reunited with my laptop!!!
Happy like hell!
Actually no....
Kind of depressed about something......
Argh. YOU just dont understand.
And no, this isn't supposed to be bad mouthing you.
I just feel extremely....
Nevermind, you wont understand.
Now I know why you always treat us(?) so nicely.
Now I know why we(?) always leave.
Sigh. Nevermind.
I'm greatly troubled.
Your sarcasm didn't help at all.
I want to cry.
Badly.
Argh.
.

Dont force me against my will.

2010-07-12T00:09:00.003+08:00

Oh hai!!!
Yes, I'm sort of back to normal.
Kaichou wa Maid-sama is a MUST watch anime!!!
Awesome like Weeeeet!
Jenn's watching too! ;P
Anyway....
REASONS WHY I HATE CHINESE:
1. How can you even memorise every single word -_-
2. Why can't it be as simple as english, no weird lines everywhere.
3. Isn't one language enough? English is fine. SIMPLE chinese is alright.
4. I just hate chinese.
T_T WHY!!!! Don't force me to take chinese against my will :(
Sucks like hell k.
Sorry to those who love chinese.
I just cant seem to understand chinese. -_-
Takes me approx. 1 min to read and understand a sentence.
Even if it's only 10 words.
-_-"

That little speck of Hope.

2010-07-10T19:06:00.002+08:00

Oh yes.
I think I have found a temporary solution!
Current mood: Entertained!
Oh yes!!!
Short post. ;D
There may still be hope for me.

Save me from myself.

2010-07-09T23:26:00.005+08:00

It's amazing how crazy I've been for the past few days.
I'm clueless to what I'm becoming.
All these madness in my head,
Caused by myself.
Maybe not.
Maybe it is.
The past few days have just been pure crap.
Weekends are here.
A few days 'off' from school.
Away from 'sitting-down-for-hours-and-die-from-boredom-and-craziness'.
Maybe I'll be able to sort things out in my head properly.
Gonna attempt to save myself from, me.
Well, I guess my blog has been the bestest 'friend' to 'talk' to yet.
You?
Adding to the fire.
Thanks for making my day extremely crappy.
Argh,
Forget it.
I shall not mention YOU anymore.
That is, I'll TRY.
Okay.
Janice shall stand firm now.
Shall TRY.
"Sometimes, girls can be your bestest friend, sometimes, they can be your worst enemy."
From that, you can infer that the person who is....
You shall finish that sentence yourself.
Things I hate:
o Chinese. ( Duh. )
o You? ( Yea, you. You know it's you. Gender? You should know. )
Okay fine. I admit. I dont really HATE YOU.
I just hate that part that irritates me to the !#$@ -ing max.
Whatever.
If you enjoy it,
Don't stop.
'I will not be responsible for any injuries'
Warning: I bite.

Okay, enough of all that crap.
Head's in a mess.
Save me please.
Anyone?
Obviously not.
Hopefully after the 'sorting out',
I won't be as crazy anymore.
Maybe I just need some time alone...
Especially away from YOU.
Whatever.....
You don't even know,
So I guess it's 'okay'.
This week started off badly and ended badly too.
Hopefully, next week would be a much better week.
I'm gonna enjoy my wonderful sleep tonight.
Wanna go out and let go of everything.
The beach would be perfect.
Awaiting a day when someone can just take me to the beach,
Let go of everything together.
Waves, taking our worries across the never ending sea,
Without ever returning back to us.
Or I could just go somewhere else.
Hidden somewhere.
Yea, I'm waiting.

Sometimes,it'shardtoletgo.Butallofushavetolearn.Imtryingtoletgo.Friends?DefineFriends.

I'm speechless.

2010-07-09T13:21:00.002+08:00

Right now,
I'm extremely confused,
Maybe not.
I'm IRRITATED,
ANNOYED,
PISSED OFF,
And many more.
I seriously don't understand anymore.
What on Earth are you thinking or planning.
I've been trying.
Over and over.
Somehow it feels as if,
Without fail,
You always succeed.
Why,
I know.
Screw you.
Whatever.
I've officially had enough.
Go ahead,
Play with my mind.
I swear,
One day,
All of these will be forgotten.
Completely.
Even YOU will be erased.
The scars you left,
Those too will disappear.
I'm awaiting that very day.
Friends, if that's what you even call it.
Life for me,
I dont know.
Thanks for EVERYTHING you have done.
To make my life worse of course.
Whatever.
I've been keeping it in for way too long.

Seriously,screwyou.No,fuckyou.Yes.

.

2010-07-08T18:08:00.003+08:00

I hate chinese.
It's a waste of time to me.
All I need is to be able to speak and write SIMPLE chinese.
I've been having difficulties passing chinese ever since p4.
Why must they FORCE me to take chinese?!
The homework part is worse.
How do you expect me to DO it when I can't even UNDERSTAND it?!
Argh.
'Study' for chinese,
Take the test,
Fail like shit,
Depressed like shit,
Can't concentrate on other subjects.
What's the point?!
Argh,
If I didnt have to take chinese,
Wow,
I wouldnt be as crazy as I am now.
Seriously.
It's not like I'm gonna go to some Chinese speaking country.
Yea, yea.
Second languages are important.
Not chinese please.
Sigh. Seriously.
If I need not take chinese,
I'd have so much more time to study for other subjects!!!!!
I wouldnt need to worry about homework and stuff.
I would use the time to improve my other subjects.
For e.g, ENGLISH, Combined Humans, basically, everything else.
But no!
They MUST force me to take chinese.
Argh.
To make things worst,
There are OTHER STUFF that's bugging me.
Hah, all in the same location.
This is just TOO WONDERFUL.
Avoidable?
NOT.
Argh.
My emotions, brain, is going nuts.
Cant think straight.
......

Itsmakingmegocrazy,theneverendingwellofproblems,someone,savemeplease,no.saveyourselffromme.

Seriously, Fuck you.

2010-07-08T14:48:00.003+08:00

The damn title says it all.
Ya. Whatever.
I've been waiting,
Searching,
Even hoping.
For the me to come back.
The carefree and "Oh I dont give a shit cause I hate you and I'm gonna be happy!" me.
Whatever.
If you're hoping for that,
Sorry to disappoint you.
Disappointed myself too.
Okay.
Things shall be like this now.
You're not happy with me being like this?
That's your problem.
I guess my blog is the only way I can express myself freely.
Screw you.
I've always thought, things would be better.
Yeah right.
Dont be dumb, Janice.
I'll just...
Forget it.
I dont even know what I'm gonna do.
Sure, go ahead.
I guess my one wish will not come true anytime soon.
Carefree?
As if.
Homework, school, already bad enough.
But, whatever.
I APPRECIATE your SUCCESSFUL attempts to add to the fire.
It helps a lot.
Seriously.
Thanks.
I cant think right.
Why aren't you like that to others?
Why only me?
Whatever. Just. Screw you.

.

2010-07-06T19:22:00.004+08:00

I just feel like crying k.
I don't see any path in front.
Seems like I'm walking aimlessly.
Argh.
Studies?
Why on Earth must they make us take Chinese.
It's so... Argh. Whatever k.
School... Forget it. I shall not comment bout school stuff anymore.
Road of escape?
Of course not.
Shit being slapped right into my face.
How many more days? Weeks? Years?
My bottle can't contain much anymore.
Breaking down real soon.
Confusion isn't helping at all.
Why can't YOU understand?
I've hinted you several times.
Are you just trying to test me?
If yes, STOP IT.
You'll die once I've reached my limits.
Since how many years ago.
It's always like this.
Why do you even enjoy it.
...
I'm just speechless.
I shall disappear as much as possible k?
I'll try.
But there are just some things that we can't avoid.
Oh yes.
Eyes are burning like hell.
The urge to cry isn't helping.
Maybe it'll help.
Maybe not.
Whatever it is, having mixed feelings just suck to the core.
Yeah, you don't even care.
Whatever k?
I shall not direct the blame to anyone except me.
I'm just.
Dumb? Irritating? Annoying? Stubborn?
Oh yes, many more.
Think of as much as you can.
They're all right.
Leave me while you still can.
I'm not worth being your friend ( If that's what you even call it. )
Oh yes, leave me please.
At least I'll suffer alone and hurt no one else but me.
Yes yes, go ahead.
I shall rot by mself and no one else.
Dont bother giving a shit. Just leave me slowly or quickly. Save yourself from me.

?

2010-07-06T18:18:00.003+08:00

Trust? Truth? Hatred? Love? Confusion?
I can no longer tell them apart.
Are you just doing this cause you find it entertaining?
Or are you just doing it cause you think it's fun to see my reactions?
If that's the case, fine.
I don't recall doing all those crap to you.
Maybe not until you overdid it.
Yeah, you get irritated.
So do I.
I have feelings, you have feelings.
We all have feelings.
It sucks to do it to you.
Trying not to do it to you.
But, you constantly to it to me.
I don't wanna just let go of everything.
It'll be ugly.
Very.
Tried doing it to you but it just won't work.
Let's just say, I give up.
Do what you want.
I shall TRY to hold it back.
Until I can take it no more, I shall bear with it.
The day when I can't take it no more?
I've got a strong feeling it'll be soon.
That won't work alright.
I shall stretch the band till it snaps.
I shall make it a point that when the band snaps,
I'll be far away from EVERYONE.
Oh yes, that'll hurt no one at all.
Only me.
Feels like I'm a bottle.
Being filled to the brim.
Once done, I'm just put aside.
Never touched, constantly having water poured in.
Never letting water come out.
It's hard to hold back but I guess I must.
Whatever will be, will be.
Sigh.

Tag or comment whatever bullshit you want, I wont be bothered to reply.

28o62o1o

2010-06-28T20:58:00.002+08:00

Today, is extremely crap.
Third period, Physics.
Headache like crap.
Till after school.
CCA. Headache like crap, still.
Came home. Still headache like crap.
Okay. I shall get to my main point now. -_-
Obviously my blog is dead like crap.
And I wouldn't blog if it isn't like... Ya you know. -_-
K. Fine. I feel like crying now.
Seriously.
Why?
Maybe my period. -_-
Maybe it's school.
Maybe it's homework.
Maybe it's just me.
Yeah, it's just me.
Sigh. I just need to say this. I WANT TO CRY K.
Now that it's off my chest. I shall stop here. Doesn't seem to change anything. -_-

Exams?

2010-05-10T21:26:00.002+08:00

Heyyo people.
Reasons why I hate exams so much:
1.1 When you don't know how to do, we are left with so much time.
1.2. With so much time, my mind wanders off.
1.3. When my mind wanders off, I'll think too much.
1.4. When I think too much, I'll go emo.
That's about it.
Oh what the heck, that's just ONE reason.
And ta da. You have an emo Janice now.
Okay, anyway. This isn't the reason why I'm blogging.
.....
Yeah right. This IS the reason why Im blogging.
Sigh.
You just don't seem to care.
I guess you're just like that.
I'll let it be.
Moving on from all these crap[s].
Exams are ending! Yay!
Finally, my weekends are coming once again!
Awesome, isn't it?
SS and A Math tomorrow...
SS, you're my only hope left for combined humanities.
A Math... 2 and a half hours...
I think I should continue my studying now. Goodbye readers.

Dontbothertryingtofigureoutwhoimreferringto,ijustneedtogetthisoffmychest, ithurtstoomuch.

Yay!

2010-04-16T21:07:00.005+08:00

Hehe, yup yup! Today was sports day. :D

Haahaa! I'm so happy that I actually managed to get first even though my toe was hurt!

Heeheee~

Had my nationals on Wednesday.

I have nothing else to say other than: 'I shall train harder for next year!'

Heh. Today was just awesome!

Casia and Marissa.....

Played with the hot fudge sundae from Mac.

Super funny. I shall save them from embarrassment by not uploading the pictures. :P

Carova! Although we didn't win during sports day...

There's always next year! Or, the end of this year!

We shall make a come back! Hehehehe!

I think I'm gonna end here. Why? Cause I'm tired! Duh! Haaaahaaa! ;D

Roar.

2010-04-05T20:40:00.002+08:00

Okay.. School today was... I don't know how to describe.
False alarm. Nationals is next Monday. -___-
Hmmm.. Lessons as per normal...
PE. Masda participated in today's game! She's so active that it was tiring to defend her.
SS... Some things... I forgot. :x
Physics... Amazingly it went by just like that!
Also maybe because Casia kept me entertained I guess.
Oh. Yes. 6/30 for Physics class test. Well done, Janice! :D
Recess..... Lalalala.
Mother Tongue.
'Highlight for the day!' (well, not exactly. )
Forgot about my Chinese homework. Got my phone confiscated. -___-
I know, my fault.
Then the rest of the day went okay...
Hmmm...
Tomorrow is some BULLY's birthday.
Tomorrow is the day when I claim back my phone!
Lol. Okay. I shall go bathe now.
Thankyou for reading! :P (P.S, sorry if I didnt reply your messages.)

Oh no~~~~

2010-04-04T22:11:00.002+08:00

Hello readers!
I know it's been 123456789 years since I lasted blogged.
Okay. What have I been up to?
Nothing much... Met SHERILYN today for Easter service.
Hmmm... Tomorrow's the nationals.. -___-
As you can see... I'm not very prepared. :(
Oh well. Guess I can't do anything but to give it my all tomorrow.
Moving on... Twitter. Facebook.
FACEBOOK IS SO MUCH BETTER!
But SOME PEOPLE just don't agree. :'(
HaaaHaaaaaa.
Anyway... I'm so tired.
If possible, I might start blogging with pictures.
That is if I'm not lazy!
But you should know me.
I'm always lazy!
Don't be jealous!
Hehehehehehehehe.....
I'm gonna end here now. Because I'm not in a proper mood for blogging. Freaking out about tomorrw at the moment! Oh no! ): ): ):

~~~

2010-03-18T16:51:00.003+08:00

Hello my beloved readers!
Extremely bored... Internet connection is CRAZY.
Now it's working perfectly.
A few minutes later, it'll screw up. Grrr.
Hmmmm.... Irritated.
Anyway.... A few more days and there goes the end of the break. T_T
Lalalaaaa~ 2 more days to the AWESOME-ST day ever of MY life!
Harhar. Just joking. Hoping nothing will ruin my day though~
Especially the internet connection *Angry face*
If it acts up again, I'm so going out for the whole day!
Let's see.. I'm so old. :( 15... I still thought I was 14. -______-
I wanna play maple but I'm too lazy to turn my laptop on.
Oh well~~~
Waiting, still waiting, STILL waiting, I died.
This is so boring T_T
Hmm.. The yellow is blinding me.
"Then don't use so much colours la!"
That must be what some of you are thinking.
But I LOVE rainbows!
Don't you think they're so AWESOME!
Sooooo colourful~
Makes me smile! :P
Brightens up your day too!
Okay. I should stop. I know I'm scaring some of you.
But I'm just having one of my those Oh-No!-I'm-So-Bored-Cause-The-Connection-Sucks-Like-Hell day.

T_T

2010-03-05T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hello, blogger sucks. What happened to the colour?! :(
Okay, anyway.. I have a sudden urge to write a new story..
But there's no freaking colours. T_T
So, forget it.
Sighh~~~
Okay, last line. Lol. My finger hurts like shit! :(:(:(:(

UGLY!

2010-03-03T21:02:00.002+08:00

Okay, First thing's first...
WHAT HAPPENED TO BLOGGER?! T_T
Freaking hell so ugly. :(
Anyway. BIG CRANES ARE SO UGLY >:(
Small ones are nicer!
And much cuter!
Hmph. Ending here.
Too plain.
So ugly. :(

o.O

2010-02-28T18:23:00.003+08:00

Okay. Something's wrong with blogger. So.. No colourful post for today.. Anyway.... I'm so HAPPY cause.... Common test 1 is over! Hehehehhe~ Went out with Congle yesterday. Hehee~ Had lots of fun! Alright man! xD! Hmmm.. Let's see.. How am I gonna do for my Common Test? I think I'm gonna fail A LOT. HAHA.
( P.S, The dog who wished I fail my tests, hope you're happy now! I bet you failed too! :P:P:P If you didnt, then whatever~~ I'll study harder next term and pwn your arse. :P )
Hmmm... I think I'll end here. Looks so plain without colours. :( I'll update again soon! :D:D:D

Tagging?

2010-02-18T18:23:00.004+08:00

Heyyo readers!
Hmm.. How am I feeling now?
I FEEL AWESOME!
Why?
Cause of some ASSHOLE!
Okay.
First thing's first.
Are you such a FUCKING coward that you dare not put your name?
Don't be a lame ass fucking dog please.
And, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR WISHES!
I hope you fail your tests with flying colours too!
Don't cry when you fail. Oops, I mean, don't be too happy!
I bet you can do way more worse than that!!!!
And LOOKS WHO'S TALKING MAN.
Who act close to who ah. Asshole man you.
I suck cos I don't know who you are?
You're the sucker please. Such a fucking coward. -.-
You not happy then talk on msn la.
You come my blog asshole here and there.
You think you cute ah? My ass cuter you know. Want see?
Nah, I scared you jealous my ass cuter.
Obviously, you are just pure childish.
Grow up la. Spamming people's blogs is soooooo lame.
You not happy, talk one on one la. Hide behind computer for what.
Fucking dog.
Use abit of brains please.
OH, I'm sorry! I FORGOT YOU DONT HAVE ONE.
I pity you...... NOT!!!!
If you see this post and feel extremely angry, LEAVE YOUR NAME BEHIND LA.
You cheebye coward. -.-

A note from someone: eh anonymous, why so kelian, dont even have name. if you know her, you can talk to her in MSN any time, why bark here? If you wanna say me back by saying i've no name, then think before you type, cause she know who am i. dont try to be some-lame-dogs. we despise them.

Hah, look asshole. Come find me la. -.- You not happy then dont hide please. It just shows your weakness.

Chinese New Year? Valentine's Day?

2010-02-13T21:53:00.002+08:00

Hello readers.
How's your Chinese New Year? Good? Bad?
Well, all I have to say is that appreciate what you have.
Oh yes.. I'm not so interested in this year's Chinese New Year.
Yup.. I don't care about the amount I'm gonna get this year..
Why?
I'd rather have a wonderful time with my relatives..
But it 'started out badly'.
Reunion dinner?
Doesn't feel like it.
Oh well...
I really wished that I can choose to 'celebrate' Valentine's Day instead of Chinese New Year.
Rocky start.
Bad feeling about this..
What has money got to do with this?
Sigh. Oh well..
I guess money has corrupted 'us'.
... I guess I should be happy that it's only 2 / 3 days...
Going to Casia's place to do puzzle on Tuesday.
Yay, something to keep my mind off things.
I loveeeeee doing puzzles!
Especially Msn's one.
Hmmm... I like Owl City.
I guess I'll end here. Gonna go find stuff to do..
Seeyou my dear readers. Have a very Happy Valentine's Day & Chinese New Year. ( Sigh. )

:D

2010-02-07T22:05:00.004+08:00

Pictures from google. :)

HELLO READERS! :D
I know it's still very early..
But I just can't help myself.

YES! As you can see, those pictures...
ARE WHAT I WANT FOR MY BIRTHDAY! xD
I know my wishes are very unrealistic...
But I can dream, can't I?
If anyone is actually able to get those for me..
Wow! I'd love you like mad!
Hahahahahaha!
Yes, I'm suddenly crazy over gummy bears and rainbows. :)
They are just so... Dreamy.. :D:D
I think I'll end here and go admire the gummy bears and rainbows. xD
Oh! Yes, the big day is 2oth March! :P TEEHEE!

:( :( :( :(

2010-02-05T21:22:00.003+08:00

Ahhh!!!
After all that shit I went through because of you, you repay me by doing this.
I have feelings too you know. :(
I'm a HUMAN BEING, not a DOG.
When you're down, you come and look for me.
Once you're okay with them, you totally abandon me.
Fine.. Then I started following her.
Then.. When I'm with her, you come to us when you're not in good terms with them.
Okay.. So, we were 'always' there for you.
No matter how badly you treated us, we were still there for you.
Because of you, she and I had alot of ups and downs.
But I'm glad that she and I are willing to talk things out.
But you? You told her not to.
What's this?
I'm just so........ Argh.
Well.
THANK YOU for all the shit you've given me.
Don't come to us again, you've officially lost your 'dogs'.
No wait, we're abandoning our DOG which is YOU.

T_T

2010-02-03T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hello readers! (If I even have any.)
:( Yes.. My tongue is killing me. And my gum is so.. Disgusting.
Okay, anyway... Common test is coming soon. Oh no. :(
Ahhh, time to 'study'.
Hmmm.. Have geog challenge training every thurs till I don't know when...
5/10 and going for a challenge... Hmm.....
Okay.........
Can't wait for Friday. Why?
Because.. Finally can go track with Anisah again :D
And, THE NEXT DAY IS SATURDAY!
Hehehehehe...
I'm very lazy to think of what to type already..
Seeyou my dear readers. :)

ARGHH!

2010-01-25T19:48:00.002+08:00

Somethings are better left alone.
Some people are just pure irritating.
They jump to conclusions to piss you off or they are just pure DUMB.
Ahh, what the heck. Who cares.
What a fucking bad day.
Left home without school badge, mum smsed me saying she wore the wrong pair of shoes.
7.10am. 10 minutes till I'm late. Immediately rushed home.
Got my badge, changed the pair of shoes and made my way back to school.
Found out that the pair of shoes I changed, was the wrong one.
Wtf?
Asked my aunty to meet me outside school to pass me my shoes.
Lessons were as usual. Not until Chinese lesson. -.-
Gosh. fucked up man.
SOME PEOPLE just dont understand the concept of life.
Hello? ITS LIFE. YOU CANT FREAKING EXPECT EVERYONE TO LIKE YOU!
Argh. Immatured Ass.
K. Whatever.
What's wrong with today man.
Seriously..
I have my patience too you know.
Crazy 3!+(-.
Argh. Today was just pure CRAP.
Sigh....
whymustyouPEOPLEbesuch@$5-()_3$?

:D

2010-01-20T21:33:00.003+08:00

Okay, I'm sorry.
I have no rights to force you. So, I apologise for what I did before. :)
Anyway.. I'm so happy!! :D
I'm really greatful to have a friend like ANISAH and CASIA. :D
Haha. Thank you both for what you've done for me! :D
Love you guys dearly!
Also, thank you very much to those who have always been there for me too! :D
Like Cheryl, Sherilyn, Celine (a.k.a the pervert xD), Sheryl, Racheal, Daz and many more.
Hehehehe.
From now onwards, I'm gonna try and think positive ALL THE TIME. :D
Currently crazy over a game in Facebook called 'Hug me' or also known as 'Zoo world'
This so isnt going to help me in school!
Hmmm.. Mr Sia is giving us homework like pouring water on the ground!
For our own GOOD I guess.
Oh well, must appreciate. :)
Let's see... EXCITED LIKE MAD FOR TOMORROW!!!!
Hehehehehehehehe.
I've never felt this happy in 2010 yet! Weee!
THANKS TO ANISAH! She never fails to make my day!! :D
Hehe. But sadly, you're already leaving next year! :(
Time flies so quickly...
I'm gonna treasure my time with you! :D
Okay.. I'm getting tired.
Goodnight people. :):):)
Thankyou once again, Anisah! :D

I'm sorry.

2010-01-18T17:02:00.002+08:00

Okay.. Today was just pure crap.
I thought things were finally starting to turn out right.
But I guess I was very wrong.
You said you were going this morning.
But who knew you would change your mind in a blink of an eye?
Not me I guess.
Why must you do this to me.
You seem to use the words "I promise" alot.
But why aren't you keeping your promise?
Don't promise me if you can't do it.
It hurts me alot.
Why do you keep stabbing me over and over again?
I think I will never understand.
I thought you would change because you're not alone anymore.
You have me, I have you.
But it doesnt seem to be working out.
I guess you just dont like it.
Or maybe you dont like me.
Whatever.. I was appreciating things...
But you weren't.
Then I guess I shouldnt be bothered about you anymore.
All I have left to say is:
All the best in your future. Commitment is a big thing. If you aren't committed to your job, then you can kiss your job goodbye. I'm angry, yet sad. Miserable. I dont know what did I do wrong. I thought you would be there for me. Like what friends should do. But I guess you dont treat me like a friend. So, this means goodbye then. I have lost my trust in you. You cant call a person your "good friend" if there's no trust. So.. I guess we'll just be normal friends from now. No longer close friends. I know you're hurt too. You probably hate me alot now. But I'm sorry. I've been hurt far too many times. "I promise".....
Yes. Goodbye.
Goodbye my friend.

?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-15T19:00:00.003+08:00

Okay.......................
Something's wrong. Seriously wrong.
Obviously, with me.
Crappy day. Yesterday and TODAY.
Ahhh!!!! If this continues, I'm sure to go mad soon.
:( Oh well......................................................................
Wizard of Oz production tomorrow....
Meeting Casia at JE mrt station ( I think. ) then going to eat dinner...
Ya... You know the rest.
Ahhh!!!!
I think, I really need a good SCREAMING session.
Bleah.
Okay, enough of my bullshit.

Woke up this morning.. I thought it was Saturday!!!
My aunty ( maid ) woke me up.
I was thinking: It's Saturday! WHY ARE U WAKING ME UP SO EARLY?!
Then I remembered that it was Friday.
Dam. :(
But oh well...
Okay, I have no idea what else to blog about anymore. Head's in a mess!! :(:(:(

:(

2010-01-13T15:18:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I didnt know!!!!
Okay, WE didnt know!!! :(
If I knew earlier, I'd definately go.
SHE's not going. So I decided not to go...
Why?
Because the people scare me... :(
And, I wont have anyone! :( :( :(
Sigh..... Last and final time....
I so do not like this at all.
I want to go.
:( Ahhhh!!!!!!!
Feeling like CRAP at the moment...

Ahhh!!!!

2010-01-12T18:35:00.003+08:00

:( I feel so guilty.
My mind had little 'Janice[s]' running around like mad.
:( :( :(
But what's done is done..........................
Bleah... I need sometime to get used to it.
Also, I freaked out on the first day!!! Going alone? I dont think so!
The people scares me ABIT. >.<
I'd die if I'm alone......
Ahh!! Whatever....
I'll go for the rest..
Only this once..
Blah.. Okay, enough 'complaining'

Okay! I'm so amazed by Tanglin.
9 A1s?!?! Wow!
That's like soooooooo amazing!!!!!
And, 10 distinctions!!!
I'm amazed! :o!
Okay, Anyway...
I think A math is hard. :(
And it's only the beginning!!!
I must start to focus already..
*Will take awhile to adapt...
Ahhhh! I can do it!
:D:D:D Believe in Him and Nothing is impossible! :D:D:D

:D!

2010-01-11T20:44:00.002+08:00

Hehehe. First track training...
Was fun! :D Well, at least better than....... I shall not mention the OTHER THING. :D
Heh heh heh... I mean, Hair Hair Hair. I think only CASIA CHEW SHERMANE understands.
Hmmm.. Track training is... Interesting. Kinda like it abit.
Freaked out like CRAP at first.
Sorry Yu Wan! You had to tolerate my CRAP. >.<
Anyway, bought an iPod yesterday.. I love my father!! :D
He's the best! :)
Oh yes, I'm extremely happy!
I finally overcomed my fear of lifts! :D:D
Let's see.. After... 4 years!!! Haha yay! :D:D
I want new sports shoes. :( White one. Pure white.
I'm too lazy to bring shoe bag.
Why? Because I have so many things to hold on my hand already.
Books are heavy :(
Oh well..
I LOVE PURPLE COLOUR! :D:D
And BLACK and RED.
BlackRed. So nice! Haha! I know its grey. But we all get the idea. :P

Second day.

2010-01-05T21:53:00.002+08:00

Okay, so it's the second day of school. Lessons starts officially.
Hmm.. Maths lesson. E Math. Homework.. 3 parts. Mr Sia's a good teacher. :)
Hmm... Lost my thermometer. :(
Oh well. English homework. Not really 'homework' but ya.
Physics... S.I units... Learned SOMETHING interesting...
1g/cm^3 to kg/cm^3 = ?
Went crazy trying to find out. Haha. Mr Tan thought us.. Wow. Interesting.
School... Is okay...
TARGETS! ( so far )
English at least an A2 or B3? :(
E Maths at least A2?
A Maths at least A2 also?
Not sure whether I can do it... :\ Oh well. Study Study Study! :)

First day of school.

2010-01-04T15:21:00.002+08:00

Yup! First day of school. Wow.
I'm turning 15 already. :( So old.
Hahaha. Anyway. The boys are wearing long pants now!
So weird you know! Haha.
Principal made a 'speech' then follow by DM...
Went back to class and... Mr Sia is 3e1's form teacher. We see him almost everyday!!
Okay.. Then at 10+ left the class and went for recess early.
Had to lead the sec 1 students for games.
Forever so dead. :(
Oh well, it was KIND OF 'fun' anyway.
I still cant get over the fact that I'm sec 3 already! So old!!
:x I shall stop complaining now. :)
Hoping that 2010 would be a good year. Anyway, Happy new year! I'm gonna end it here now. :)

:)

2009-12-30T13:52:00.004+08:00

Hehehe. Random picture of maple to brighten up my dead blog. :P

Okay. Sorry for not posting for such a long time.
Very lazy. Hehe.
Anyway, school's starting soon. Oh man. :(
Oh well. It's gonna be good, I hope.
Sometimes we all have worries and problems that make us lose hope.
But no matter what, we must always believe and hold on tight.
Lalala... Havent touched any of my homeworks yet.
So dead.
Went out with BeeLing, Congle and Casia yesterday.
Watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 with them.
Extremely cute!!
Hehehe. CYRIL IS AWESOME!!!!!!! ( for casia to see! :P )
I think I'll end it here. Will find time to blog again. :)

I'm back! :D

2009-12-17T13:45:00.002+08:00

Hello! I'm back from chalet! :D
Lets see...
Reach downtown east at around 11?
Could only check in at 2.30. So we went to watch The Princess and The Frog.
Very sweet. Haha. :D
Movie ended at around 1 plus. Then we went skating till 2.40.
Forgot what we did at night.
Dreamt of someone that night.. Scary, but the dream was nice.
Then... Went swimming at the nearby pool for about 1 hour.
Went back then BBQ-ed abit before we went to Wild Wild Wet! :D
Had lots of fun! Went in at 1 and left at 7. xD
Stayed in the Shiok River most of the time when we were there.
Got back and ate abit of food then bathed.
KO-ed at 8. I know, very early.
Woke up at 10 and went back to sleep.
Dreamt of the same person again.. Wow. Both nights. Hah.
Once again, scary but nice. :)
Hmmm.. Forgot which day we went bowling...
My sister.. First game, first three balls, all strikes. Turkey. Wow.
Second time this happened. Haha.
Checked out at 10.30 today..
Then went bowling again.
Slept in the car during the journey back.
Stomach was hurting like hell.
Hmm, I think I'll end it here for now. :)

howisitpossibletodreamofsomeone3timesinaweek?
andthatsomeoneisntrelatedtoyouinanyway.
ohwell.
thedreamswereawesomeanyway.(:

New Moon!!!

2009-12-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

Hello.
Went to watch New Moon after service at vivo...
EXTREMELY AWESOME!
Jacob is DAM hot!
Bella and Edward are so loving!!!
Ahhh!!!! I'm gonna watch it again!!
I can't wait for Eclipse.
Anyway, met Umairah at skypark to give her a little "surprise"
Hah. Nice meeting her again.. :)
I'm feeling kinda yucky right now.
I don't know why.
Experiencing loads of mood swings lately..
And no, I'm not having my period. -.-
Ahhhh... I don't know why but it seems like people are ignoring me. :(
It seriously kills my mood...
Oh well.....
Training ending soon.
Last training for me tomorrow.
Finally.
When I say last, I really mean LAST.
:) Only Bee Ling and Yu Wan understands what do I mean by last. :)
I really want to know what's happening to me...
I don't like this...
Oh well.. Things happen for a reason....
Hmmm.. Okay. I think I'll end it here. :)

ohwell,
igiveup.
inmypointofview,
imonlyhurtingmyself.
nopointtrying.
hah.
imgonnafocusonmystudies.
andimproveonmyenglish..
onlySOMEpeopleknowwhy.
mylittlesecret. :)

Hmmm..

2009-12-12T23:06:00.002+08:00

Oh man. I think my laptop is going crazy.
Okay. Anyway... Real bored...
I plan to start studying next week..
Hmm.. Happy Birthday Sheryl Quah, Sheryl Loi, Matt and Quin! :D
Once again, sorry Umairah. :(
I found lots of cute videos on youtube!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dam dam dam dam dam dam dam dam cute!!!
My laptop is getting irritating.
Why do all my belongings go crazy? :(
Sigh.... -.-
Really dont feel like going for training on Monday... Waste of time. -.-
Oh oh oh oh oh!!!!! YAY FOR YU WAN :D:D:D I LOVE YOU GIRL! ;)
Hmmm.. Dont know what else to say...
Oh! I wanna watch New Moon and The Princess and The Frog!
Hehehe...
ifeelasifeveryoneisignoringme. :(
Oh well, what to do what to do..
Okay. Im ending it here. Comp's going crazy -.-

-.-

2009-12-09T20:00:00.000+08:00

Fine. You're the BIG SIS. You can do WHATEVER you want.
I hate it when it's like that. -.-
I ASKED you NICELY. You didn't reply. Whatever man.-.-
If you're not happy, just tell me. You need not act like some Fucker at home.
Today's already screwed enough. Thanks for making it WORSE and FUCK YOU.
I shall not give you my respect no more. Since you dont have any for me.
Can't take it anymore.
All I get is being bossed around and scolded.
I hate this. -.-
Seriously, take a gun and shoot me please.
Doesn't seem like anyone needs me anyway.
Screw this.
YOU can do it, but I CANT.
Why? JUST CAUSE YOU'RE THE ELDER ONE?!
Whatever man. You haven't been THAT good to me.
Think about it. IT ISNT FAIR FOR ME.
Ive been always giving in. Just this once, can't you let it go?!
ARGH! THANKS ALOT. REALLY NOT APPRECIATED.
YOUR ATTITUDE SUCKS.
Fuck you. Seriously.
You make me wanna just scream at you.
YOU make me wanna run out of the house and cry.
Whats wrong with everyone. -.-
Fine. What's wrong with me.
My existance is only causing trouble.
I hate this.
I hate you.
No. I hate myself.
People must be retarded to even like me.
Even as a friend.

My only wish..

2009-12-07T20:27:00.002+08:00

alliwantissomeonewhocanlistentome..
guyorgirl.
idontcare.
ijustneedsomeone):
icantkeepthisupanymore..
ireallyneedsomeonewhoiswillingtolisten..
justonewilldo..
oneicanreallytrust..
oneicantellanythingandeverything
:(
mywishwillneverbefulfilled.
sometimes,peoplejustdontunderstandme.
sometimes,evenidontunderstandmyself.
icantkeepbottlingthingsup..
illgocrazyoneday.
sigh..
ohwell..
iguessmyblogisthat'someone'iwantfornow..
icanexpressmyfeelingshere..
okay..
ifanyoneisabletounderstandthiswholething..
thencongratulations..

Think, think, think.

2009-12-07T12:07:00.003+08:00

Hello people. :D
Have to go for training later... Boring as hell...
Anyway.. I suddenly thought of what I want for my birthday.
I know it's still long. That's why I want it so badly!
I want.. Someone to accompany me to go blading... And sleep under the stars!
Without parents scolding me... -.-
Okay, whatever. Lol.
I've made my decisions but I still haven't done it yet. Courage Janice, COURAGE! ~
Christmas is coming.. Yay. :D
Hope I need not go for tomorrow's carnival.. Made plans with someone already..
Going to buy books with Bee Ling on Friday. :D:D
Oh yes, I'll start studying for next year once I've gotten my books. :D
I'm a very good girl! :D:D
UMAIRAH's birthday is coming up.. Yay! ;D
Can't wait to see her!
:( That means I cant go rollerblading with my family...
Ahh, whatever. Will sort that out later..
Hmmm... I think that's all for now.. I'm gonna rot and wait for time to pass. :D

ICantWaitForThe15th! GoingChaletWithFamily. Yay! :D<3<3<3<3

I just have one thing to say...

2009-12-06T22:05:00.001+08:00

CYRIL ROCKS!

CYRIL ROCKS!

CYRIL ROCKS!

CYRIL ROCKS!

CYRIL ROCKS!

CYRIL ROCKS!

Hahahaha! :P will blog again tomorrow. :)

NEW ROLLERBLADES!

2009-12-05T16:23:00.003+08:00

Yay! My dad just bought me a new pair of blades. Awesome! :D
It's been quite some time since I last rollerblade-d.
Really wanna try my new blades. But the weather isnt all that good. :( Freaking rain.
Anyway, anyone wanna accompany me go blading? :D
I think I'm gonna make this a short post.
Will blog again some other time. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUA WAN NI :D
the noob. Just joking! Hahaha!

Oh yes, I'm finally feeling happy once again. :D

Bleah..

2009-12-03T09:55:00.004+08:00

Blogger's retarded. Tried to upload pictures.. But it wont upload. Oh well.
I'm bored...
Yay! I'm gonna watch Cyril Simply Magic tonight!
He's awesome!
Somethings I'll never understand... Tssk. Complications..
Take a gun and shoot me please.
I suddenly feel like doing lots of things...
Like, 'playing' in the rain.. Screaming... And many more..
Fulfill my wishes and I'll give you a hug or a kiss.
Just joking!~
But I really do wish to play in the rain and screaming..
Oh well!
Hmm.. Do you think you know me well? I don't think so...
If you think you do, then tell me. I'll test you. :P
If you fail, then you owe me a drink! Hmm, Maybe not. A hug will do.
I'm not desperate. I just need a hug.
I still haven't bought my books yet...
Hmmmm...

Haha. Yay. Finally. :P

I find Pon and Zi extremely cute..

Haha...

Okay.. I have nothing else to write...

Gonna find entertainment.

Seeyou readers. :)

:)

2009-12-02T18:17:00.002+08:00

Hello people!! :D
Training today was.. Okay I guess.
LOADS of tyco shots. Hahaha!
Anyway, I'm feeling better now. Much. :D
Thank you Sherilyn, Casia, Xy, Wm, Congle, BeeLing and... Everyone else who tried. :P
I seriously can't wait for next year! It's gonna be so awesome!
Weeee...
I've made up my mind!
And it is to......... Not gonna tell you!
Hehehehehe.
Nomatterwhat,allofushavetomoveon.. :D
Some random line I suddenly thought of. Heh.

To Sherilyn Chee, My dearest girl.
Dont be sad! Cheer up! :D
We must believe in him!
Pray. Hope. Believe.
But remember, no matter what you still have me.
I'll always be here for you, girl!
Please dont hurt me by crying alright? :)

Hmm.. Im so... Sleepy..
I feel like going out again..
Staying home is so boring!
Anyone wants to go out with me?~~~
If yes, TELL ME PLEASE! :D
I want to watch New Moon. Hehehe..
Okay. I think I'll end here. Do remember to tag :D

:\

2009-12-01T19:57:00.003+08:00

Today was... Okay, I guess. Hah.
I've been thinking again...
Oh well, things will change soon...
Ahh. Whatever~~
Short post for today...
Thanks Casia, Wm and Wm's friend.. Sorry bout today. :\
Will find a way to make it up to you guys....

somehowidontfeellikemyselftoday...
sigh..
ohwell..
everyonehastomoveoneh...
nextyear...
nextyearthingsshallchange...
mypointofview,imnotsurewhetheritsgoodorbad.
toYOUitmaybebad.. butwewillneedtomoveon..
toYOUitmaybegood.. goodluckifyouwantitthisway,allthebest.
Sigh...
mydeardearjanice...
whatswrongwithyou...
timetowakeupandfacereality.
nomoredreamlandforyou...
someoneslapmehardplease.
anyone..
justgivemeawakeupcall.

~

2009-11-30T18:01:00.005+08:00

Okay, first things first.
I AM OFFICIALLY NOT GONNA GIVE A DAM.
Okay. I feel much better now. :) Now on with the post! :D:D:D
Hmm, today wasn't as boring as expected. Yay. :D
I must thank my fellow SLs and Bee Ling.
Somehow, amazingly, I got my mood back. Yay!! I'm the hyper Janice once again!
Awesome!!!
Wondering about some stuff.. Will it be good? Or will it be bad.
Hopefully good... Hmm.. IT WILL BE GOOD! :D Because...
I BELIEVE! :D
I am extremely tired... I feel like sleeping....
Hehehehhehe... Casia's trying to ask me out.
Laughing = tiring.
Lalalala.
Blogger is telling me that posting may fail.
I'm gonna explode if that happens.
Ahh, whatever. Hahahahahaha!
I need entertainment once again.
Any volunteers? Hah.
Hmm, nevermind!
At least I'm back to myself.
I can entertain myself!
My mouse is going crazy.
Oh well, Gonna end here for now. :) Dont miss me!!!!

Oh yes, THANK YOU XIAO RUI FOR BUYING MY LUNCH :D

:)... :l.... ?...

2009-11-29T22:50:00.002+08:00

Lalala... Oh yes, I'm back.
Yesterday's outing was... Hillarious.
Webcam-ed with Casia at night.
She made me laugh like no tomorrow. My parents called me crazy. So did my sister.
"I am complete!" Hahahaha!
Dead bored at the moment..
Still thinking too much.
What to do.. What to do...
Feel like up loading pictures.. But I'm too lazy to do so.
Hmm, I need a new game to play...
But nothing seems fun to me...
Roar...
Okay, let's see.. Going to school for SL stuff tomorrow...
After that, training....
By the time I reach home it'll be around 6 or so..
Oh what the heck.
I'll still be bored!
Anyone wanna go out? Sms me at 923..... ...
You didn't think I would post my number eh?
Hahaha! I'm such a genius!
I know you're desperate for my number~
Okay. This is the result of having an EXTREMELY BORED Janice.
Those who know my number, please dont type it out. Lol.
If you do, you're so dead.
Hmm. I cant take this anymore. I'm gonna go look for something to do. Will blog again some other time. :)

:D? :(?

2009-11-27T21:17:00.006+08:00

Hello readers! ( If I even have any. xD )
Yup, I'm blogging! Amazing, isn't it. :P
Just finished watching Wall-e.
Going out with Casia tomorrow... Yay. Haha.
Camp was awesome. Yay for Caspen! Final year as campers. Heh.
Hmmm.. Sudden thought of sleeping under the stars... Ants-less floor that is.
It'll be perfect if it was with someone. Be it a girl or a guy. Hah.
LIKE REAL!~
Bored....
Suddenly thought of the "Bumble bee cheer". Yvonne's version that is.
It goes like this:
I caught a little big fat Jennifer
I caught a little big fat Jennifer
Mummy mummy come and see!
I caught a little big fat Jennifer
I'm too lazy to continue. You want the full one, ask me. Haha.
I seriously need something new to do.
Keep my mind off things.
Thinking too much these days. Not good.
Maybe I should get a hobby. Haha..
I like clouds, the sky, stars, the moon. Basically everything in the sky.
It'll be so awesome to sleep under a sky full of stars.. REAL stars.
Hmmm... When I think of it.. Alot of things have happened lately..
I'm confused. Once again.
What to do.. What to do...
Why do I have a feeling that there's alot of crap coming my way...
Oh well! No one cares anyway.
I'll have to face it, eventually.
Hmmm.. I'm seriously bored.
Any good games to recommend?
I need entertainment!
Anyway, do tag before you leave! :D
And yes, I'm half emo-ing now. ~

2009-11-16T13:24:00.002+08:00

Oh right!
I Went to watch 2012 yesterday.
I saw typical Singaporeans!
Everyone started queue-ing up to go in 20 minutes before the show started!
They were like in a hurry to get in.
Makes no sense though, you get in early, you will still get your own seat. Tssk.

Hmm....

2009-11-16T13:11:00.004+08:00

Okay, Internet's back... But... Only 1 wireless can connect at a time I think, Cos I'll get kicked out whenever my sis connects. Oh well.
Sigh. Maple sucks. No wait, I think it's my computer. I waited 2 bloody hours to dl maple. And when it's done, I can't open. Okay, Nevermind. I restart my computer... When I'm back, the freaking security thing said it has removed something. Then, I tried opening maple again. Something's missing.... Missing thing = removed by my computer. Grrr.
Oh well.. Guess I'm not fated to maple anymore. Whatever.
Hmm... Was microwaving my food just now.. And the microwave suddenly went off. Gosh! :(
Anyway..... I'm waiting to be entertained. Ha ha ha!
Hell bored... Anything to do? I need something to do! Freaking maple cheated my feelings twice! Grrr.....
I Think I'm gonna go play puzzle pirates for awhile......... Hehe.. Anyway, Seeyou! ( If there's even any readers! )

Hehe!

2009-11-10T11:15:00.002+08:00

Hello!
In the library with CASIA the CAVEMAN!
She mapling now... Maple freak.
Hmm, will blog again later tonight.
Internet will be back by tonight! Weee!
Okay, bye.
Casia just burped.

What on Earth...

2009-10-28T19:12:00.003+08:00

What's wrong with you?!
No. Wait. What's wrong with ME?!?!?!?!?!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
Losing my mind.
Ah whatever.
Bloody smoker.
And yes, it's YOU that im referring to.
YES! YOU KNOW ITS YOU!
What, You put a STICK into your mouth and huff and puff. You think it's cool eh?
DREAM ON LOSER.
You think you're some big fuck?!
Please, understand the SITUATION before you act.
So what if girls like you.
You smoke and smoke and smoke.
"I never smoke le"
That's what you tell people.
Yeah right. My ass doesnt let go of shit. Do you believe? Obviously not.
BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT IT DOES. AND YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO SMOKE AND ACT!
SHEESH.
THANKS for making me FEEL SO MUCH BETTER.
*Pukes*
One more day. And that's it! ONE MORE DAY.
Oh. Wait. TWO MORE YEARS.
Gosh.
Call yourself a leader?! WHERE'S THE SPORTSMANSHIP!
Hello~~~ REAL WORLD HERE.
YOU THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE EH?!
THERE ARE OTHERS TOO!
Full of crap and SMOKING.
You think you're big cos you smoke eh? DREAM ON DUDE.
Dont think I dont know.
I KNOW THINGS OKAY!
Bullshit...........................
You think you're cute eh?
My foot.
Pfft.

whateverasshole.
leaders?
myfootisabetterleader.
iknowimnotgoodeither.
butatleastsportsmanshipeh?
where'syours?
inthetoilet?
ormaybeyoudontevenknowwhatitis.
Grrrrr...........................................
iguessEVERYONEmaturesfasterthanYOUTWO.
Pfft. whatevermoron.

Whatever.

2009-10-28T15:24:00.004+08:00

Today. Just sucked. Oh whatever.
All you guys do is act like some big F .
Oh well, didnt go for training......
Hmm, I would like to thank Congle, Casia, Wan Ni, Linda, Marissa, Bee Ling, Racheal and many more.
And! Miss Anthoney.
If it werent for you guys, I wouldnt be able to hold on till now.
So, THANK YOU!
Love all of you LOADS.
I feel lucky to have friends like you guys.
Hah. Might post again later tonight.
Okay Casia. :)
ILOVECASIACHEWSHERMANETHECRAZY'INTELLIGENT'GIRL. :D

ARGH!

2009-10-12T17:50:00.003+08:00

Arghhh!!!!
Why does this keep happening during the exam periods!
Grr... I can't take it anymore!
Sigh. :(
One by one.
Oh well............................ ....
Speechless.
Trying to move along...
How much worse can it get? :\
Sigh. I shall concentrate on my studies for now.
THESADNESSINMEKEEPSFLOWING. :(

alliwantisjustsomebody.
justoneisalliwant.
sigh....
justone....
justone........
argh.
evenYOUarebeingpulledawaybyHER.
Why?...
argh.
whatever.
MugMugMug.
Jiayou Janice. You can survive without them. Let them do whatever they want. It doesn't concern you anyway.
There's always a light of hope. I can survive!

sometimesijustwannarunaway... farfaraway... tillifindtheperfectplace... butthatwillneverhappen... soi'lljustkeeprunning... andrunning...

:'(

2009-10-07T17:38:00.002+08:00

Well, I guess it's over.
I was hoping this day would never come.
But, it did.
Whatever we have been through, shall be remembered...
Secrets shall always be secrets.
To me that is...
Well, I guess it's time for me to move on.
I dont know, maybe it'll turn out worse. Or better.
For now, i'll be sufferring in silence.
All I've got to say for now is Best of luck for your EOY.
May your wishes come true and study hard.
If you think I'm talking about you, then it's you. If you think it's not, then it's not.
All I know is that I'm hurt.
Bottle's filled once again.
Holding back everything as this will only continue for a few more weeks..
I'm not sure whether you kept yours, but I'm sure I did.
Oh well.. No point being sad over it.
Can't do anything about it.
Gonna attempt to move along...
Sigh...
I guess our friendship wasn't meant to last.
Somehow, you broke your promise.
Only reason why I was so against it was because I cared for you.
I didn't want your future to be ruined.
I guess I wasn't able to get the message to you.
Sigh.
Nevermind.
I'll just move on.
You may hate me.
But who cares?
Hate me all you want.
I won't bother no more.
Gonna focus on my own things now.
Do whatever you want.
I'll learn to let it pass.
Your actions aren't what you said.
In fact, the opposite.
I don't understand.
I guess I never will.
I just have to get used to that.
Life's unfair.
I'll never understand myself and everyone around.

illmissthehappytimeswehadtogether.
hopeyougetwhatyouwant.
maybeimthewronginfluence.
idontknow.
well,
allthebest.
thefriendshipwehadwillneverbeforgotten.

Full of crap.

2009-09-23T17:27:00.002+08:00

Today was Rubbish.
Dance sucked. Recess sucked. Maths... Sucked even more.
Crazy teacher... Serious problem.
Oh well, only a few more months... No wait, Weeks.
Hmmm... Okay. I'm gonna go do something else.
Will post again some other time. (:

Hehe.

2009-09-22T17:39:00.002+08:00

Hello, Hello!
I'm back!
It's been quite some time since I last posted.
Casia complained that its time for me to post. Haha! I know you miss me hell loads Casia.
Sudden thought of fulfilling my dream... Oh well. I'll just have to study hard!
School is okay I guess.
MissKavitha has been a little bit unreasonable lately. I guess the teachers are stressing out.
Loads to study for EOY.
Extremely happy that CCAs are suspended!
Finally, More time to study!
Trying to complete dance programme project... Argh. Lots to rush. Sorry Yu Wan! :(
Stopping Maple till EOY. Yay for me! I'm no longer "addicted" to Maple!
Congle just came online.
Yay! :D:D
Will post some other day again.
Casia, if you ever come to my blog, Dont miss me too much! ^___^

Sick and tired.

2009-08-22T07:19:00.001+08:00

You'll never understand.
How hard I explain, nothing will be understood.
If thats what you really want, then I'll just shut up.
I'll let things go by.
I wont bother anymore.
I'm wasting tears and effort.
Since it's not even appreciated, fine.
My bottle's filled to the brim.
Now, all I'm getting is more water to fill it.
I cant take it anymore.
I HATE THIS SO MUCH!
I guess dreams are just meant to be dreams.
Mine will never ever come true.
That is why, I've decided.
I've decided to give up.
I'm so sick and tired of this crap.
I try and try.
But I guess I need not try so hard.
I'm letting go of things now.
Hate me all you want.
Now everything is showing.
How wrong I am..
Each year just seems to get worse...
Problems after Problems.. When will it stop? I dont know... Sigh.......

Some secrets you told me, I wont let them out. If you want to tell mine, go ahead. I dont give a shit anymore. Im so tired of this...

What's this?!

2009-08-19T19:19:00.000+08:00

I have always wondered why..
Why are people so vain?
I admit, it's okay to be a little vain.
But why do people care so much about looks?
Everything will eventually be gone once you're older.
Why can't we ever accept someone for who they are on the inside and not the outside?
Sigh, I guess I'll never understand why....

Moving on....
I've been having weird dreams which seem to come true. (Somehow)
I think it's just me.. Ah ha.
I really hope I can maintain some of my subjects.
Failed chinese! :( ! I'm extremely afraid to tell my mum and dad...
Sigh. Why must I be so sucky in chinese... T_T
Oh well.. Things will just have to be done... Eventually.......

=\

2009-08-11T19:28:00.000+08:00

To Nat, I'm really very sorry.
I didnt expect things to turn out this way.
I thought it would be more of a One-on-one talk.
But it seems like I'm very wrong.
I'm really really very sorry.
Please dont think too much about this.
I guess I shouldnt have done that. =\
I know its hard to forgive now.
I dont mind that.
But I really hope you're awake now.
I'll buzz off if you want.
Just dont do anything stupid.
Once again, I'm extremely sorry.

...

2009-07-24T19:34:00.002+08:00

Okay. Look, This is how I FEEL and THINK. So if you dont like it, stop reading and leave. I do not need your comments or whatsoever.

I am shocked by how people can change so much... After what we've actually gone through...
"What did I ever do to you?" That's the question that has been in my head for a long time now...
I admit, I did change. Also, I know I have made you angry or pissed.
I know what I did. So now, I'm trying to treat you as nice as possible.
But why?! I want to be treated the way I'm trying to treat you now. I try.
But, whenever I try, you treat me like fuck.
So, Since you treated me like that, I tried to treat you like that too.
But whenever I do it, it takes some effort to do so. It hurts me too.
I know you dont like it. Neither do I. But you keep treating me like that.
I cant take it anymore. It's not once, or twice. It's WAY more than that.
I seriously miss the times.. The old times... Why... It hurts me like shit...
I TRY to understand you. But you aren't allowing me to do so.
I do not want to cause all this crap.
But it keeps coming my way.
I try to ignore and move on.
But you aren't helping AT ALL.
If you want it to stop, help me out will you? At least i will be able to stop giving CRAP.
Sigh, I just dont understand. Trying to move along doesnt help at all...
justlikeathousandknivesstabbingmyheart..why...why...why......... sadnessinme...

(:

2009-07-08T17:27:00.002+08:00

Hehehe. Random picture. The background's nice, isn't it? Haha!

Okay. Anyway, Mass dance is gonna be so.... D:

Oh well. CCM today wasnt as boring as expected... Amazingly.

Hmm.. Cant wait for the weekends... Hehe.

Xinyi~ :D

Okay. Do tag okay?! Hehehe. Im going back to maple now. =X

Oh yes. I know!

2009-07-04T16:56:00.000+08:00

Okay. Ahem Ahem. Yes, I am finally posting after SOOOOOOOOOO long! :D
Hmm.. Fell asleep while smsing someone last night. Super funny.
Woke up at around 3am and replied. I asked: "Why are you still awake?"
"Oh. Cause of your message. And I didnt know it's 3am. Omg. So early =x"
LOL. Weird person eh? ( No offence ) :P
Had weird dreams lately. Hah. Oh well.
Woke up at around 7. ( I think. )
Sat on the sofa and watch CJ7.
It's amazing how I can 'almost cry' everytime I watch it.
Played Dragonica awhile.. Then went to play Maple. Hehe.
Stopped Mapling at 3.. Then watched Ben 10? And Spongebob. Had nothing to do.
And now I'm here!

Congle ah Congle. Hehehehe.
This rainbow is specially for YOUUU!
You still have me no matter what kay?
Need a pair of listening ears? I'm waiting~ ;D
Hehehe. Stay happy, girl!
Oops, I mean boy. Haha! Joking. Love you Congle.

Zzzzzz.

2009-06-06T18:53:00.003+08:00

Okay. Im not gonna bother about the colours for this post. Too pissed to give a dam. -.-
Please, I just got back from camp.. Why cant I just slack at home for ONE day. Dammit. Its not that I hate church or something. Its just that Im going there FOR NOTHING.
I dont understand a single shit. Its in chinese! I cant even do PRIMARY FOUR chinese. What makes you THINK I can even UNDERSTAND. -.-
You said that everyday first Sunday of the month, its a MUST to go. What if I had camp on Sunday, YOU wont go also right?! WE wont be going church. Please. I WANNA SLACK AT HOME. I WANT MY FREEDOM. WHAT, IS IT THAT HARD TO GIVE ME ONE DAY TO REST / SLACK?!
Argh. Dammit. -.-

losermoronretardidiot. !@#$%^&*()_+

Oh my gosh!

2009-05-21T18:50:00.004+08:00

MEP performance... Gosh. The performance sucked! Almost everyone forgot the last beat.
And yes, that includes me. So embarrassing... Oh well... At least we TRIED...
Went for Percussion.. So lonely.. Congle! PERCUSSION is BORING without YOU... =(
Sigh. Anyway, I cant wait for the holidays!
Freedom is only 1 week and 1 day away! I will survive! I can and I MUST!
Grades are super bad.. Im doing badly in school.. Time to work hard. >.>

MapleThingyOnSat, ShouldIGo? @.@ My eye is still irritating me! Grrrr..

Argh. D:

2009-05-20T17:21:00.002+08:00

Okay... My left eye kept 'jumping'. Irritating. >_>
Anyways.. Got back English marks... Gosh. Paper 2 is so... I have nothing to say.
Oh well, Good news is that I passed Chinese! Can you believe it?! 50 marks!
My Maths is officially deproving.... Oh no. Anyone wanna tutor me? :D *joking!
Percussion is so unfair! Argh. Pfft. Pathetic... Oh well...
Might start linking people over the weekend.. So, leave your links! ;D

Sigh.. Timetostudyhard.. Wakeup! Roar.

Love you Zhuang!
Love you too Casia!
Love you too Chocolate! My 'Les'Boyfriend!
Love you Gillian! See! Green! ;P
Love you too Cindy!
Love everyone else too! Especially those in the list xD!

D: !

2009-05-07T18:06:00.000+08:00

Oh man.. English and chinese paper 1 tomorrow... I'm sooo dead!
Ive been busy mapling for the past few days. xD
Might start posting regularly again after exams..
Hmm... Monday's a 'holiday'. Yay!
All the best for the exams guys! ;D
Idontknowwhattotalkaboutanymore,*randominginprogress.* (:

RAINBOWS! :D

2009-04-28T20:00:00.004+08:00

This shows how bored I am during lessons. Look at the cranes I folded!

Blah blah blah. Had lit test today.. I think Im gonna fail D:

Anyway, Yumiko said I am obsessed with rainbows.

Well, we ALL have to AGREE with that ya? ;P

Watched pokemon just now. Super cute. xD

Okay. Im gonna go find something else to do now. Enjoy the RAINBOW-NESS!

Red - Maths lesson

Orange - F&N lesson

Yellow - MT lesson

Green - Literature lesson

Blue - Basics lesson

Purple ('Dark' blue) - History lesson.

Heh heh heh...

2009-04-25T20:25:00.000+08:00

Had extra lit lesson today..
Went to Mac with Beeling, Nicole, Gillian, XiaoRui, Xinyi and Masda! I mean Yumiko.
After eating Brunch* with them, Gillian went home.
We accompanied Beeling to Fairprice to buy sweets.
Beeling and Xiaorui went to Yumiko's house. While Nic, XinYi and I.. Went to buy acash! ;P
Hehehe.. Mapled for about 7 hours today. xD

Brunch* = Breakfast + lunch ;)

nomatterhowhardwetry,yourestillasstubborn,cometoyoursensesplease.

Random-ing Rocks! (;

2009-04-23T20:47:00.001+08:00

Hmm.. School wasnt so bad.. For once. ;P
Pe was plain crazy! Hurray for Cypress! I mean Carova. (:
Blah blah blah... Nothing interesting happened after recess...
Interviewed band teachers. Ahhh! Super nervous. Got some tips from Mrs Lee after the that. :D
Got home and mapled... Hmm.. Xinyi is officially Maple-Siao!
Cant wait for Saturday! Yay! XinYi, Dont forget to bring money ya? ;P

sinceyoureunwillingtostudy,justgohomeandsleepyourfreakingassoffanddontcometoschool.yourespoilinglessonsforus! >=(

Sweeeeeet!

2009-04-22T20:32:00.000+08:00

Weeeee~ School started off quite badly. But, it got better! MUCH better! Yay. (:
Hmmm... BeeLing! Congrats! You have a new twin! Miss Jenna! HAHA!
Percussion is getting B.O.R.I.N.G and Pissing.
Hmmm training was kind of awesome today! Hehe..
Quote: "You better shoot properly if not I dig out ( tickle ) you eyeballs!" Oh Zhi Min~~
Anyways, congrats Dance ensemble people! Gold with honours eh? Well done! Haha. ;)

"Lessonlearnt,alwayslookattheball." :P

Muahahaha!

2009-04-21T18:46:00.001+08:00

School was CRAP as USUAL. Was pissed off at first but it got slightly better.
And, XinYi! Great job. The Maple "disease" seems to be spreading eh? ;D
Poor Don, sponsor everyone of us mesos kay?! 1 mil yea? ( you still owe xinyi and I 500k! )
Anyway, Congrats GuZheng people! Well done!
Super bored... Countdown to the weekends! Yay. Only 3 more days of hell!
Psst, XinYi, Gillian, XiaoRui, Nicole, Don, Maple on Sat & Sun kay?!

schoolseemstobegettingcrappierandcrappier! ): Sheesh. SincewhendidYOUcareaboutmeusingtoomuchcomp. -.-

Crappy day

2009-04-20T19:07:00.001+08:00

Crappy night, crappy morning, crappy lessons.
Summary - Crappy day.
School was boring as usual..
Stomach tried to kill me as the day went by... Sheesh.
Having a sense of guilt now... This is BAD.
Okay. Short post. Can't think of anything at the moment.

thankyouforwastingyourtimereadingthis. (:

My very first post.

2009-04-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

Posted by Jenn. Just to see how it looks like. :)

Ciao peeps! :)